[2.11.22 Newsletter] Something to Complain About

This newsletter was written and sent on February 11th, 2022. It has been minorly edited to remove names but is otherwise left untouched. At the time of this letter, I had been living in my van in Florida for about a month and a half; working remotely and in a long distance relationship. I decided to share it here as it expresses my genuine emotions at that time and serves as a good reminder to me today.

2.11.2022 Newsletter

I was going to write an email about how you need to make the most out of your life no matter where you are and how there is always something that you can complain about and that you should look at the positives. And I’m still going to do that, but unfortunately, I’m struggling to look at the positives right now (and I really just mean today because I think overall I am usually pretty good at this). I’m currently sitting by the very first campfire that I’ve had on the road but instead of focusing on the warmth and how peaceful the sounds of nature are, I’m finding myself focused on the bugs biting my ass, the maintenance I need done on my van, all the things that happened at work, and the fact that I’m alone.

These are all things that are present in my life on a regular basis but they feel heavier right now. Maybe it’s just because everything is happening at once today, either way I can’t seem to shake them. I am by no means saying that I don’t enjoy where I’m at in my life right now. That would be a lie and completely contradict my last email. I guess I’m just writing this to remind myself and you that there are going to be hard moments. Even if you’re in Florida, living the lifestyle you’ve dreamed of, have a job that you typically love. There are still going to be hard moments. Your problems won’t all magically disappear when you make X amount of money, when you meet the love of your life, when you reach a certain weight, etc.

So instead of focusing on all of these problems, try and shift your mindset to acknowledging and appreciating all of the good moments. The taste of coffee in the morning, the sun shining, the few stars you can see, the grass beneath your feet, the loving messages your boyfriend sends you. It’s not going to be easy all the time, but try your best.

With that being said, I’m going to go sit by this campfire and enjoy it, dammit!